This semester has been a lot to take in, just like any other semester, but this time I was happy. So, so happy, I was on top of the world. But also just like any other semester, it lasted only for four months.

I was in a really bad place earlier this year and to think I rose up to where I was about a week ago, it was unbelievable. Now I just feel like I'm slowly going down the stair to where I was at in January.

Truth be told, there were no tears throughout these four months until a couple of hours ago. It was all laughters great food, great places and not to forget, great people.

It's hard when someone with a heartbeat becomes a part of you. It's hard to let them go. I was prepared to let go, well that was what I thought, but things changed. I guess I got too comfortable to the point I did not think about the bad things that could possibly happen.

I dont know what to feel right now. Constantly torn between being selfless and selfish. Wanting the best for myself without making others feel the worst. But here I am, doing the best I can for others while feeling the worst for myself.

The people I encounter were unbelievable. The old ones got better, the new ones became the best. Yes, there were fights and the feeling of being torn between the people I care for, but it was something I got through. But can I get through it now?

I know, I know I've been through worse, but right now, at the moment, everything seems so unbearable. It seems like it would be better to just jump off level 8.

But let's focus on the good, shall we?The new experience, the places my feet had the chance to set touch, the people I had the chance to love and the people who loved me back. It's all about moving forward and taking in every positive vibes you get. This semester has truly been the best and I would not trade the memory of it with anything.

i have been thinking a lot but not at all at the same time. I know it doesn't make sense but that's how things are now. Things are good. Bad things still happen but ones I can dodge and still feel good about myself. I'm stressing over healthy things and I have friends around me who radiates the same energy as I do. Not only a few years ago but even four months ago I was lost, at rock bottom. I felt completely demotivated by something I was even unaware of. It feels good to look back at it now that i'm in a better surrounding. I've realised putting too much thought into something will only get the best of you. Sometimes it's enough to go with it as long as you're happy about it. Obstacles will still come no matter how much you avoid it. Sometimes it's better to do now, think later.