Letters to myself I wrote this week

#1// I’m scared. I’m so very scared. 

#2// I feel like everything I do has been wrong, that it wasn’t good enough. Why am I feeling like that again? 

#3// I can’t sleep anymore. I stay up all night and then I’m tired all day but I still can’t sleep. I tried, but I’m so restless.

#4// My heart hurts and I can’t stop crying. I miss it, I miss being happy. I miss myself so much. 

#5// I honestly thought I was doing okay, but then everything came crashing down on me and I’m drowning again. It’s suffocating and I don’t know what to do. 

#6// Do they even really care?”