To the person I've not yet to lose

Imagine losing someone you love. No not in a way you get to see them walk out the door and maybe make eye contact in the streets. But i'm a way you truly don't get to see them again and your last goodbye was never truly proper. Imagine the person you love going away to somewhere imaginable and if you do go away to the same place some other day, you might not get to see them again or even remember them. It's a pain I never want to go through. The pain of not being loved back is already unbearable let alone having to live a life where your lover no longer exist. To the one I've not yet to lose, I love you. It may took me a while to realize and you may never know this but I do. I love you in a way I've never loved anyone before and I mean this in the most cliche way possible. I love you as a lover and I love you as a friend. You were a friend I never thought I needed. My love for you may or may not fade or all of this could just be an illusion but you are my friend. You will always be my friend and I look at you more than that. Even if you don't look at me the same.