My heart will always ache for you my friend

My heart wasn't supposed to break for an almost lover, but it did, and God did it hurt like hell.

We loved each other, we loved each other so goddamn much, but never at the same time. Always one but not the other. And how unfortunate it was to confess those feelings that we weren't supposed to have only to find out that they were gone in the other person.

We both knew there was love but too scared to do anything about it, until it was too late, until it was definitely over. Until confessing that there was love was the only thing that could be done to try and dull the deep heart ache that was being felt over a "friendship".

Everyone knew it was more. We didn't. It was always more though. It was always love. A love that now we will never know if it could've survived. A love that never got a chance. A love that now gets ignored and pushed away. A love that is searched for in other people knowing that it will never be found.

My heart will always ache for you, my "friend".