why you gotta break my heart like that
The thought of you only brings up too much amount of emotions in me. Anger, pain, sadness, regret and so on, mostly negative ones. This was a lot for me. If betrayal was in a human form, you would be it. I sometimes miss you, coming back to you. Missing the feeling of being able to go back to someone who keeps me grounded at the worst times. You were both a lover and a friend. You made me discover a lot of things, and that, I don’t regret.
The feeling of regret is there, but I just cant decipher what is. I genuinely wish I can. You were like an walking diary to me, irrational at times, but understanding most of the times. I assume I was the same for you. Sad it had to end this way.
I wish nothing but the worst for you. Im sorry but I sincerely do. You’ve caused actually quite a lot amount of pain for me. I don’t forgive you, unhealthy, I know, but what can I do? When the time comes I’ll just forget about you. There will be flashbacks, im sure, but lets just hope I wont have to bump into you anymore. I hope they leave you, I hope everybody does. If you cant act right, why should they be there for you like I did? Honestly, nobody can be there for you like I did.
I guess what hurts me the most is the phrenic conception of how I’ll never do what you did to me. How foolish of me to still feel the same. My heart shatters. I could not think of a single reason for you to do so. What was it for honestly? Was it worth risking our amity? Well I hope you're satisfied (I genuinely don’t). I hope it was worth breaking my heart like that.
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ride or die
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