After being knocked some senses by Kamila two nights ago on a facetime call, I actually felt better. I was still sad that it was over but I guess it was inevitable. I was thinking of how undeserving you are of me, how I was simply too much for you and you just had to find someone less. Even if things were able to get better between us, I truly believe we are destined for disaster anyways. I loved you so so much but I guess too much to the point that I was harming myself, like I usually do.
but this morning, after finally disconnecting ourselves in the most possible way, I felt sad. I guess I was finallly realizing that things are really over now. I truly cannot predict how it will be once I am back in kl, but as if now, it is unbearable.
I want to stay friends, but sometimes you make it hard. you sometimes make me feel like this wasnt even a friendship to even start with. Maybe because i expect more from you, and that's just how you usually treat your friends.
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