Day 270: I'm sorry and thank you

I am sorry for the times I dragged you down with me. Little did I know how good you were for me, but I was toxic for you. People don't know you, they hate you because you've been seen with me. I'm sorry for the times you've been hearing negative whispers about yourself from random passers by. You hear voices from the people you thought you had no issue with and it's all because of me. 

Thank you for the times I felt lost, empty, and indecisive. Thank you for telling me the things people from my past couldn't tell me. Thank you for showing me how toxic the people from my past life were. Thank you for understanding me at times I didn't even understand myself. 

I don't mind being teared down or stepped on, but to see the people I love go down with me for the things I did is something I can't bare to live with. I'm sorry for not being able to do anything about it. I've moved on, but a part of me wants to fight for you. 

I regret no decisions I make after you. You make me prosper and healthier in ways I've been trying to be in years. I'm sorry for being selfish for keeping you with me to make myself grow but at the same time it tears you down. I'm sorry my problems dragged you down with me.