it changed

Am I finally immune to every social relationship I have? I no longer care, I no longer feel. I could've sworn I loved him. It didn't happen too fast, it was just how I like it. And it didn't end too fast either, its like I expected it. 

It doesn't hurt I guess. But it stings whenever I see him. Just a mild pain in my heart. Something I could bare. I miss him. Tapi setakat itu sahaja lah. 

I remembered crying rivers for you. I remembered how real the pain was but now there's just nothing. 

Sometimes I'm scared. Is this what I really think of love? Is this really how I cope with pain? What if I never find someone who truly loves me because I keep doing this over and over again? 

Would I go back to you? If I spend too much time in the thoughts of the times we spent together maybe I would. Would I want to? I'm not so sure.