why did you stop

i miss you. i miss you so much. i miss being able to tell you literally everything. what i felt, what i didnt. i miss being safe with you. i miss not caring about not having anyone but you. i miss how much i mattered to you as much as you mattered to me. but at one point you decided that had to stop. why did you? why did you had to leave me scarred and traumatized like a three year old boy whose dad had abandoned? why did you have to cause me panic attacks late at night no matter how long this issue has been? why did you have to leave me with unanswered questions and myself to blame?