2018 2018 2018

damn, what was 2018 to me. I had so much happening to me to the point i cant really conclude if it was a good year or a bad year. I had both great and bad friends. Educationally i was going somewhere and nowhere at the same time so what was it?

I guess i could point outs a few of my memorable moments in 2018. Nor greats ones or bad ones, just memorable.

I fell in i love i guess. For the second time in my entire life. This time it was different, this time i actually spent time together in each others' presence. Laid in bed with him, played his hair, held his hands, shared my music, had him pouring his heart out to me at 2am and still had him left me hanging. now i only pretend to excitedly waving at home and have a few minutes of breathing difficulty as the aftermath. now i only gulp at the thought of him being so close to my friends but no longer to me.

but it still had great friends. friends who makes me happy. friends who remembers me. friends who make me laugh. and occasionally friends who make me sad.

but i guess i could say 2018 was the year i went out of my and keep discovering something new. i became friendlier, more confident. i like that. i became bolder. my 15 years old self really couldnt see me where i am now.

and i started a bad habit. a bad habit that anyone beyond my life in kl i hid from. i was not influenced nor was it peer pressure. and it wasnt exactly the stress but i just started it.

i felt so detached the tnire year honestly. idek i was just so sick of getting hurt. later on i just realized that i never got attached and it did not hurt me ever since. but guess the fact that it didnt kind bothers me.