i have so much negativity in me that i can start feeling it eating me from the inside. i find it hard forgiving someone for something that i've no longer suffer from. i feel like a bad person. a bad person towards everyone else and a bad person towards myself. i see the good people im surrounded with, even the ones i hate, i dont deserve them. but what can i do? its as if im incapable of being someone nice or decent for even a second.