DRAFTS

"I don't know what's wrong with me lately. Everything seems off. I feel like giving up on every relationship I have with everyone. I constantly doubt myself and feel like everything I do is wrong. I'm trying so so hard to not do what I do best, dropping everything. I constantly need to remind myself how I need the people in my life, how good they are to me. I need to constantly remind myself that I need them to live. But they aren't showing interest in me.

I've always had this mindset that I don't need those who don't need me but now that I think of it, those people are the one who keep me going. But what if I'm not what keep them going? Do I know my worth, walk away and feel alone? or do I stay and feel worthless?

It's been awhile since I'm not quite ready for death but living isn't on the first on my list either."

This was a draft I found, I forgot when was this and why I felt like this. But its true. Some days I do still feel this way and it feels like rock bottom. Honestly reading my entries, my life is definitely a roller coaster. But I guess its the same for everyone.