Patience

I had a conversation with a very good friend about his patience towards someone who treated him the way he doesn't deserve to. I didn't question his patience, I respect that. I questioned his ego. Well it didn't seem like it when I was practically swarming him with questions like "Why didn't you fight back??". Not in those words exactly, but something similar. 

My ego was bigger than his, no doubt there. In fact, I was also being egotistical about who's egos are bigger. I'm patient, I know that, but all this while I thought I neutralized that with my ego but before this I'd call it "self love". I knew the limit between being patient with someone and still having some dignity. The fine line wasn't really that fine to me. 

Questions like why's and how's were filling up in my brain about why is my friend still being his patient self with this other person. And he gave me an answer that kept me up at night writing exactly this, "I dont know I just am". Truly ridiculous and I definitely can't relate. Took me awhile to start writing on this probably because maybe I do relate. It took me a few hours to understand him but I do. 

Sometimes being around the people you love, they bring out a side to you you never thought existed. I didn't recall not lashing out on someone every time they treat me wrong but I do now. Everytime they're hurt and they intentionally hurt me, I take a step back before my angry self responds. That's when patience come in. And I had so much of it to the point where I'd question myself. 

I guess what I'm trying to say is, when the people you love bring out good sides of you you don't even know existed, that's when you know they're good for you.